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[22 Oct 2007|10:05am] |
i have an important announcement...
i won a million dollars!!!!!!!
jkjk... the real news is even better
IM GOING TO SPICE GIRLS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I AM SO PUMPED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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[29 Sep 2007|10:18am] |
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i dont know what to do...
i feel like my insides are all in the wrong places
my stomach is turning and i feel puky
i cant eat i cant sleep
im not sure who i can trust anymore
he cheated on me
he got drunk and made out with some girl
i dont know what to do
i am devastated
i love him so much
but i dont know if i can ever trust him again
i feel very alone right now
like i cant talk to anyone
i cant depend on anybody
and i have no clue what i am going to do
i wish i could just wake up and have all this be a bad dream
but its not and i have to face it
this will only make me stronger
at least i hope
i just dont know what to do
i dont want to leave him
hes my best friend
and i feel soo comfortable with him
i cant talk with anyone the way i talk with him
i cant relax and just be myself
this has never happened to me before
and i hope on everything in this world it never happens again
i really need some help
i dont know what to do
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[16 Aug 2007|02:04pm] |
when something like this is in production
so many sicko's out there....
i get the whole saying "guns dont shoot people... people shoot people" but lets be serious if buying a gun wasnt as easy as it is... all this wouldnt be needed.
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[30 Jul 2007|11:07am] |
so im in love.. i really am
i love him so much but all i have been doing lately is treating him like crap and i dont know why..
i keep getting mad about the stupidest things.. im not being myself and its scaring me
if anyone knew how i was last year you would not want that side of me to ever come back
but i feel like it is, the other night i got so mad at him for his poker night..
thats not the kind of girlfriend i am, or want to be
i dont even know why i was mad and i didnt care that when i was yelling at him
it hurt his feelings, im going to push him away if i keep this up
and i dont want that at all.. i really thought that the reason i acted the way i did last year
was because of drugs and drinking
i hardly ever smoke anymore, and ive been drinking quite a bit since my birthday...
but i just turned 21 its not aproblem or anything..
i dunno i really need to snap out of it before i lose him...
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[10 Jul 2007|12:17pm] |
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[26 Jun 2007|10:01am] |
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if anyone knows how to get this boy out of my head please let me know
i can't stop thinking about him... all day long
i have no idea how to express what i feel for him.. there arent words for it
its so crazy how we ended up like this, we talked about it last night
when we met and started talking we both were kinda hesitant
because we have both been hurt before and werent really looking for anything
but i decided to just see where it led so did he and there we were lying in bed
holding hands just so happy just being around each other
and we are so comfortable with eachother
sure we have our fights but honestly i think it makes us closer
we are growing together and really the things we fight about are stupid but
we are both those kind of people who speak our minds and
we can be stubborn but everytime we make up i feel like he
means more to me than before... i am soo happy!!!!
p.s. i got a new job: i am the new office girl at Marc's Auto in mantua!!! yay a real job with benifits and everything!!!!!
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[29 May 2007|02:23pm] |
so i know my past few posts have been on the same subject but i dont care
I AM SO HAPPY!!!
ahhhh he may not be the perfect boyfriend, but i am not the perfect girlfriend.
but he is the best, he is so sweet to me.
i got pink tulips (myfave) for no reason...
and the other night when we had a fight...
he requested a song for me on the radio.
noone has ever done that for me before.
he is the easiest person to talk to.
and we are lame silly dorks together all the time.
we just have fun.
and i met the whole family on memorial day.
his grandpa is the shit.
and i really like him <3
pictures when photobucket is not gay anymore
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[06 May 2007|05:12pm] |
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ummm Wow i think i am falling in love.
the past 2 weekends have been so amazing spending everyday with him...
I have always wanted a boyfriend to be one of my best friends, and matt truly is..
i honestly love just spending time with him and goofing around..
I am soo happy i met him he has made my life so much better....
:) and i can't stop smiling
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[28 Mar 2007|05:43pm] |
I am so happy : )
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[06 Mar 2007|08:09pm] |
umm so Matt is just the sweetest guy i have ever talked to
he makes me breakfast in the morning and DVR's prison break for me when i have to work
and unlike all the other guys ive talked to he invites me to hang out with him AND his friends
and his friends are really fun too
i really hope i dont get hurt this time...
but we had "the talk" and we are taking things slow and not being anything official .. yet
but it is headed in that direction!!!
:)
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[26 Feb 2007|05:27am] |
so theres this boy...
and every night he texts me before he goes to bed... just to say good night.
when we cuddle we talk for hours.. he can always make me laugh.
he drinks beer and dances.. and hes so fun..
and hes taking me on a date tonight!!
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[03 Oct 2006|05:04pm] |
i think i might lose myself again today.
i have to stop letting anger control my life.
but its really hard.
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[06 Jun 2006|12:29pm] |
hi.
remember me?
cause it really seems like all the people who used to mean the world to me, have completely cut me out of their lives.
all i know is i miss everyone and im sick of making the phone calls.
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[07 May 2006|01:30pm] |
sooo
my mom and i got in the really huge fight friday afternoon and she took my keys and forced me to leave.
so i started walking down infirmary hoping one of my friend could come get me before dark because most of them work. or don't have cars.
my friend tony came and got me and i went to his place and hung out for awhile. then steph picked me up and we went to moes.
then we went to dane's house and his girlfriend kelly was there and she was telling me that her roomate was moving out.
so i said give me a call when you know and i can take over her room. its only 185 a month plus electric.
so it will be hard but i cann afford it. espically with all the gas money i will be saving from not having a car.
so i have my own apartment now in ravenna.
and if any of you hear of anyone with a couch or chairs.
or a microwave and toasteroven.
or a dresser.
PLEASE LET ME KNOW.
kelly's old roomate took all of her things so we litterally have nothing.
but i honestly cannot live here any more.
i already say/do things i don't mean, to my mom.
and i don't want to see how bad it could get.
i can't take the ups and downs.
it sucks but its just what i have to do.
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[03 May 2006|06:37pm] |
so its been awhile but i have been busy.
working 2 jobs with no hours.
uhhh it sucks.
i have to pay alot of money for a speeding ticket.
yuck.
i can't wait for june i will start working at the park again and actually have money.
yay!
anyways i am just getting over being very sick for like the past 5 days.
o and i got my hair highlighted!
i asked for blonde and when she was done my hair was white!
i freaked out.
but it toned down and turned out ok.
i like it now.
i feel like i have let all of my friends down.
it sucks.
and im sorry.
i just want to start fresh.
and not owe anyone any money anymore.
and buy a car.
i really need my own car.
so then i can start looking for a place to live in the fall.
because i want to move out.
in othernews.
i saw spiderman 2 at the omnimax theater!!
it was frickin sweet.
except it made my back hurt.
ok love you!
bye!
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[16 Apr 2006|10:12am] |
Off-The-Wall Questions . . .
1.) When was the last time you went to the bathroom outside?:
uhh new years i think
2) Which was your favorite pokemon?:
squirdel
3) Which family member do you most resemble?:
my moms
4) Do you own your own Bible?:
nope
5) Do you wear deodorant?:
yeah everyone's doing it
6) Do you clean up nice?:
you tell me
7) When was the last time you tripped and fell?:
last night
8) Where was the last place you slept besides your home?:
andi's
9) What are you listening to right now?:
bad touch - bloodhound gang
10) Have you ever started an uncontrollable fire?:
no. can't say that i have
11) Ever run out of gas on the road?:
twice
12) Would you rather cut the grass or rake the leaves?:
cut the grass
13) Your middle name spelled backward?:
nnyl
14) What is the last thing you downloaded onto your computer?
a song
15) Last time you swam in a pool?
ooohhh when i went to that one place with alisha chris and pyatte
16) Have you ever been in a school play?:
yes
17) How many kids do you want?
2 or 3
18) Type of music you dislike most?:
classical
19) You registered to vote?:
nope
20) Ever been arrested?
not yet.
21) Ever prank call anybody?:
duh.
23) Would you go bungee jumping or sky diving?:
yes. will you go with me?
24) Do you have a garden?
my mommy does. and i tried to plant one for the preschooler one time but i suck.
25) What's your favorite comic?:
i dunno anymore
26) Bath or Shower, morning or night?:
shower, night
27) Best movie you've seen in the past two weeks?:
bench warmers
28) Best pizza topping?:
pepperoni
29) peanuts or popcorn?:
popcorn
30) Orange Juice or apple?:
orange, 'apple' what are you thinking sicko? i hate apple juice!
32) When was the last time you ate a homegrown tomato?:
never
34) Ever order anything from an infomercial?:
nope
35) Sprite or 7-Up?:
sprite
36) Have you ever had to wear a uniform to work/school?:
yes haha senior yer i never washed my uniform and neither did anyone else in lab. haha.
37) Ever thrown up in public?
yes.
38) Would you prefer being a millionaire or find true love?:
well being a millionaire would give me a lot more time to find true love
39) Do you believe in love at first sight?:
you never know until it happens
41) Did you have a lot of hair as a baby?:
eh average
42) What do you think about most?:
what am i going to do tonight?
43) Favorite form of travel?:
my car....
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[05 Apr 2006|01:39pm] |
o hey.
my sister is engaged!!!
& my life sucks.
callme.
♥
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[14 Feb 2006|03:43pm] |
aww my daddy got me some really good chocolate covered cookie things for v-day and this card it so cute. well at least i think.
outside
inside
happy v-day!
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[30 Jan 2006|01:28pm] |
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uhh since i did get this new livejournal and everything i guess i should update it.
-anyways i have to pay lots of money to fix a car that is not my own because of a stupid thing i did
+the boy i am secretly in love with now has my phone number and says he will call :)
-i am broke and have 20 dollars in the bank until friday when i get paid
+i got my debit card today
-i can't use it for lack of money
+i don't have another positive
-i need a second job. if you hear of anything in the streetsbororavennakentgarrettsvillemantua area let me know
+i cashed in all of my change and bought a tanning package so now i look more tan
-im getting fat-ter
+my cell bill was under 100 dollars this month
-blah blah shut up erin.
i love mostly all of you.
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